Yesterday was a happy glimmer of hope at the nursing home where I have worked playing music since 2017. For the first time since the pandemic, we were able to gather in a small group (wearing masks) and sing together. It was uplifting to us all and very meaningful to me. I have played music in nursing homes for 16 years and since the pandemic, I have had to move all my music sharing to virtual. It is not the same as coming together as a group to sing and share as we were able to do yesterday. I was thinking how it got to be something I took for granted and I never would have imagined something like this pandemic could happen.
At this nursing home, our favorite songs are gospel songs. I was struck by how much the words resonated and rang true for all we have come through this past year:
"Farther along we'll know all about it, farther along we'll understand why. Cheer up my brother, live in the sunshine, we'll understand it all by and by."
How many times have we been in the midst of something and been just dumbfounded by what it all means? why is this happening? What does it all mean? and then when time passes, we "get it" and understand.
One man was in tears as we talked about their year in lockdown. Now with vaccines, and covid under control there (they lost 17 residents last July from Covid), finally a glimmer of normalcy is beginning to return. Spring is on the way and we broke into, "I Saw the Light" by Hank Williams.
"I saw the light, I saw the light, no more darkness, no more night. Now I'm so happy no sorrow in sight, praise the Lord, I saw the light!" Another favorite.
As always, people always tell me, "You're so nice to be doing this. " but I can tell you I get so much out of it . To see how these people have endured being confined to a small, shared room for a year and to watch their friends dying, to not be able to have visitors from family or friends, to be deprived of any love and much needed social contact.. I don't know how they could have done it but their strength inspires me.
I left with my heart so full of gratitude for them and sharing of music again .